Wanting someone I can't have? Help please e_e?

Nothing wrong about it !! But as a big twist in life ,, When you do go for it , hope it is just with one person ,from that day and keep that person in your whole life ,not just go from one relationship to another ,, That is gay ! Its not a easy life ,! people will put you down all the time ,and believe me ,once you go in that direction ,it will hurt you inside and out ,! you wont be able to feel nothing except pain ! because all you are going to hear is your gay ,your gross , how can you be with same sex ,you will feel that no one is close to you ever ,you wont ever be able to trust , you will feel scared,unsure of many things ,you will only want to be in the house ,you will judge yourself ! nothing worse ! We are not born with that ! we are born to love ,Honor ,cherish ,and that is very hard to do with out any just one in our life ! Im sure that you are a very strong person right now , but its going to change !!