I'm scared to orgasm?

Think of it this way...imagine the pleasure that your BF will experience if he is the first one to ever give you that amazing pleasure....you have nothing to be self conscious about...believe me he will not be grossed out...and getting louder is just letting him know that he is doing what you like...do it and you will be amazed at how great your BF will feel for giving you that pleasure not to mention how great it will be for you....when he ejaculates he gets things a bit messy...does that make it gross??? NO!! Its all good....let him keep going for both of you.....wet sheets can be washed no worries as he said he will put down towels,,,,obviously he wants you to experience this with him...let him take pride in the fact that you let down your guard and trusted him enough to experience this together...if you are old enough have a drink before you start this will calm you but not to much alcohol as this makes you less sensitive and it will be harder for you to have an orgasm...LET GO GIRL..YOU WILL LOVE IT...AND SO WILL YOUR BF.. HE WILL PUFF OUT HIS CHEST KNOWING THAT HE IS THE FIRST ONE THAT EVER DID THAT FOR YOU...